Wat can I say abt my feelinq 2wards euu now
I really don noe..
Perhaps is juzz merely as a frd..
Show care nn concern 2wards euu..
Another had passed again..
I didn’t hear from euu..
Is it euu choose not 2 reply??
Or is there any other reasons behind it??
I don wish 2 guess anymore
Cuz it will make me misunderstand euu
Give euu e blame that u nv did.
Juzz like all these yrs..
I thought that u r angry with mii
Nn u thought I m angry with euu..
So funny..
Heaven is makinq fun of uss
But it doesn’t matter now..
Juz hope that euu will lead a better life now..
7:55 PM
meetinq euu once again perhaps was fate or a mistake
but it doesn’t matter 2 me now
juz wanna euu 2 lead a better live than before
be safe nn sound
that’s enough 4 mii
though life cant be e same anymore
but u don have 2 make it worse
promise ya that will be there 4 ya if euu ever need my help
that’s e least I can do 4 euu now
so plss promise mi that euu gonna take really good care of urself
8:19 PM
23 June
ya 2dae is juz another dae 4 me..slack, procrastinating..suppose 2 study but always didn’t manage 2 study much..i m so lack of discipline..= x haha…2dae heard from alan that his card got is spoilt..so sad..poor boi..no hp 4 euu le..think he gonna die..his hp is like so precious 2 him..haha..but don worry..u can survive thru it..later in e nitez, alan borrowed hp from me 2 msg.. ya he msg zy..i was like a bit..don noe how 2 describe my feelinq either..anyway still lend him e phone..didn’t expect him 2 reply but he did so he nn alan continued 2 sms.. who noe alan go gave him my e mail nn asked him 2 add me on msn.. dotz.. - _ - “” really didn’t expect myself 2 get in touched with him after all these while..nv ever cross my mind at all..heard from alan that he thought I m still angry with him..haha..so funny..i thought he’s angry with me instead..so all these while, both of us got e mindset that he’s angry with me nn I m angry with me..haha..then after that I went online..saw that he added me..actually was feelinq kinda of nervous..like nv talked 4 sooo long nn now we r back in contact out of a sudden..he came nn chat with me 1st..then we chatted..hmmm,don noe wat 2 chat either..think he feels more comfortable chatting with alan..haha..then after that he went 2 take a 10 min nap nn I went offline after that as alan wanna use com too..ya heard from alan a lot abt him..wat he went thru all these yrs..his family etc..haizz…it really breaks my heart 2 hear all that..wat he had went thru..i didn’t noe it would affect me so much too..suppose 2 do maths revision but after that really cant continue anymore so decide 2 slp as it’s already 4 am..some more tml still meetin my dar dar nn sweetie..ya was lying on bed but couldn’t slp at all..really feel like cryin..really…didn’t expect him 2 go thru sooo much alone..it muz had been tough on him..as a result..i couldn’t slp at all even though like lyinq on e bed 4 soo soo long..then after that I msg my angel??shld I call him that??told him that” I m feelinq upset now..can he cheer me up”haha..ya but didn’t expect him 2 reply me at 4 plus..he juz woke up at then..after that he called me 5 times but I didn’t pick up..i told him don feel like talking now nor I wan him 2 hear my voice in such a state..so we msg instead while alan is still talking 2 him on msn..it’s been a really really long long time that I get sooo upset over some1..even 2 e extend of couldn’t slp..haizz…ya lucky got angel r****..haha..we chatted a lot..though I always called him a kiddie but in fact he’s NOT!!!he always thinks deeper than any other ppl..glad 2 have him when I couldn’t think I could find any1 at that pt of time..THANKS A LOT!!!he even scolded me silly gal 4 worryin e whole nitez..ya true..that was like so silly of me..ya we msg till abt 6 or 6 plus in e morning..then he offered 2 give me a morning call at 930 2 meet dar dar nn sweetie..i msg zy 2 tell him nice chattin with him juz now..alan said since he already initiate 2 add me on msn then I shld be da fang too..he replied fast..ya we msg ..i think I fallen aslp at abt 7 plus..finally..get into my lalala land at last..
24 June
ya kiddie reave called me at 830..haha..very sweet of him 2 give me a morning call but WRONG time my deer..i juz fallen aslp so of cuz I didn’t ans his call..then received a msg from him telling me not 2 go out nn rest at home instead if not I might juz faint on e street..haha…wow…feelinq sooo sooo much better after a slp..really…hmmm…I m back 2 normal once again..*happy* went 2 bathe,doll myself up nn meet dar dar nn sweetie at queenstown..i was early..then was in a daze there alone..staring blankly..i waited 4 them 4 soooo long..dotz..in e end…e guo tie shop nv open 2dae.haiz..sianz..so we proceeded 2 eat at e café at ikea..heard from mrs wong e chicken was really yummy..ya so decide 2 give it a try..heard from sweetie e meatball spag was heavenly too!!!hmmm,but I feel it was juz alrite..don noe whether is it bcuz my taste seems 2 be bland 4 e dae..everythinq juz taste fine 2 me..anyway I felt so bad 2wards Wilson..so sorry..got 2 make ya wait again..sorry..by e time,we reached town was like 3.20pm..hah..so late..then met Wilson outside taka nn it started 2 drizzle..oh no..but nv mind..we continued 2 walk without umbrella..anyway it was like juz drizzling.. we went 2 e flea market..haha..quite disappointed…expect it 2 be big but as a result is really e size of a flea..haha..i didn’t really shop with enthu but can tell sweetie nn dar dar really enjoyed it..of cuz I still look ard with them tooo…sweetie bought a bag nn a bead ring(her fav)..ya always have lots of fun nn laughter when u c e combination of dar dar nn Wilson 2gether..they r like so lame…but I enjoyed their company..~ ^ _ ^ ~ in e end e rain was getting heavier so we went 2 roam abt at cine instead..shop 4 wilson’s bag too but he didn’t c any that he fancy..dar dar bought a skirt at hula nn co..it was like almost 5 so we went 2 kfc 4 dinner..only dar dar nn sweetie ate as they working later..ya 4 e whole dae,we had been msging too..he was like askin me where m I so I told him town..guess wat he replied???”OMG..which part???I told him cine..he said he’s in cine too..i was like..plsss..don let me bump onto him…nonono..plss….he said he looked ard nn didn’t saw me..lucky..i didn’t reply him after that as was busy asking will 2 teach me maths..ya replied him after we r out of cine..was sooo worried that will see him but lucky I didn’t..then we took 190 2 clarke quay..sent my dar dar nn sweetie 2 work..haha..i m sooo sweet..haha..upon reaching Clarke quay,brinq will 2 c e “go fly kite club” thingy but no1 was even there yet..sobz..too bad..then we decided 2 walk 2 bugis instead..i don noe e way but will said he noe it..so fine..let’s walk then..in e end we reached raffles city so he said wanna try his luck..2 c is there any bag that he likes..u sure cant imagine this!!instead of shoppinq 4 his bag,he went 2 buy b*x** instead..my god..was like damn embarrassed..haha..damn funny..dotz - _ - “”” then he walked 2 bugis 2 find his bag…was like pretty tired le..only slept 4 2 hrs..he was like still very concerned abt me..askin me 2 go hm early rest..then muz take care etc..hmm..ya..juz didn’t expect we will sms each other again..life is truly unpredictable..will got e nike bag that we saw that time..we went 2 get a top 4 his bear’s bdae too..it was like 9 plus le..we still go Chinatown 2 get e da dong da bao 4 my mummy as she had a sudden cravin 4 it..then met alan at bb 2 go home 2gether..anyway we went 2 eat b4 headin back hm as I didn’t had anything 4 dinner..my daddy thought that we r together..i was like if cuz no..he don believe me..he said he had pass thru this path too..then was back 2 doin maths again..zy msg me at 12 plus..his msg was”u aslp”..ya I replied not yet..y??then he said juz checkin..y not slping??don tell me u r studying again..haha..finally reply from him..checking???haha..ya he like treatin nn talking 2 a little gal..telling me 2 take care if not my body cant take it..be good gal nn slp early etc..we msg till 2 plus till I fallen aslp..was pretty disappointed with his life now..i noe that he don wan it..but juzz fell that it doesn’t suits him at all..haiz..2dae had a long long long dae…back to my lala land..
25 June
ya juz realized 1 4got 2 reply him..so reply him nn juz got 2 noe that he juz reached hm..hmmm,then we msg 4 a while nn he nv reply le..perhaps he’s busy or wat…nv mind..as ling as he’s fine can le..ya went 2 work after that…felix was sick so didn’t make it 2 work..uncle dan was damn funny..kept thinkig that felix feign fever nn lied 2 him..haha..was hopin that he would reply me but he still didn’t..ya so be it then..i wont msg him too..haha..then after work,went home..then back 2 maths again…ya was msging kiddie tooo..he damn crappy..give me don noe wat kind of theorem..then I still believed him…who noe…
26 June
he said he anyhow said de nn don noe wat he’s talking too..dotz..- _ -“”really kiddie..he damn funny..asked me pei him go town c clothes..i was like…can u pls don ask meput durin exam period,shld motivate me 2 study instead..haha..he was right 2 sayy that staying at hm doesn’t mean u will study..true..i agree..juz like me..procrastinating..haha..
in e end he went town 2 get a rugby ball only..haha..funny..ya I practice maths till 2 plus then was uploadin my pic on frdster..then enter my lala land..
27 June
wow..was maths paper 2dae..scared..meet li hua at 2.15 2 ask her some qns..now u finally understand le..lucky got ask her if not even till now I still don get it nn wont really noe how 2 do e maths paper 2dae..my frds feel that is easy..to me,is juz alrite..think will get a few qn wrong esp e partial fraction 1..regret not looking at e qn if not I will noe how 2 do le..sobz..nv mind..anyway finally 1 paper is down..tml gonna be a killer paper..a n p..suree die but hopefully not a horrible death..till now,I m still bloggin..think 2nitez really don have 2 slp le..can meet lulu 4 breakfast at 4 at mac..haha..alrite..got 2 study le..
8:09 PM
You know who we're talking about — the champion consoler, the person you can always count on, the person who knows how to clean up even after the biggest emotional superspill of your life. This friend gives you a one-on-one rush like no other. This confidante for all seasons can probably even read your mind just a little. Or don't you remember the last time they finished a sentence for you?
Lucky for you, your supportive sidekick can probably guess what your next dreams will be before you even do. It must be nice to know you have a tireless supporter and coach in your midst, someone you can tell anything to who always has your best interests in mind and a smile to cheer you up. How sweet!
11:48 PM
You just learn to live without them."
"It's sad to see that two close people don't even recognize each other anymore.
Not because they grew up...
but because they grew apart."
"If I could be anything I would be your tear,
so I could be born in your eye,
live down your cheek and die on your lips"
"This time it's over, I'm keeping my heart.
I'm gonna be strong and not fall apart ..
It'll get better, I'll no longer cry..
In a couple of weeks, I wont want to die,
I won't want to go back, I'll be able to sleep,
It won't hurt so bad,
and it won't feel so deep"
"A million words would not bring you back,
I know because I've tried.
Neither would a million tears.
I know because I've cried."
I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's just a dream,
and pretend he's not hurting me."
"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does..."
"Telling my heart to stop beating
is like telling my mind to stop thinking...
Like throwing a stone in the ocean
and telling it to stop sinking.
Telling the sky not to be so blue
is like telling me not to be in love with you."
"You never know what you have
until you lose it,
and once you lose it,
you can never get it back"
"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else."
"Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person,
but when you see his smile,
you suddenly realize you're just pretending
you got over him to ease the pain of knowing
he'll never be yours
1:43 AM
15 June
meanwhile blogging,was chatting with Alvin on msn as well.then was sooo sad that e entry that I typed was gone..haizz..went 2 my class blog nn saw e url that manda asked me go c..so I clicked on e link nn went 2 yahoo auction..e dress was sooo sweet looking..then I continue looking..actually by then,no1 was online le..was juz chatting with Alvin only as every was aslp by then..5 plus in e morning..haha..i kept looking nn looking at those dresses..i even copied e url nn paste on msn 2 let him c..haha..to my surprise,u noe wat????he pei me look at it too..even give me comments etc..haha..we chatted till abt 6 plus when my mummy came in..haha…she was shocked 2 c me still awake..later stil muz go sch 4 sports activities..anyway I went 2 slp abt 6 plus cuz he goin back camp too..saw lots of dresses that I fancy esp e white one..simply falling in love with it!!!!wanna get it….after that, i went to my dream land le…haha
16 June
suppose 2 wake up at 9 when I went 2 slp at abt 7??haha..anyway,we msg after I offline..i asked whether can he wake me up at 9 later cuz I really scared that I overslept..msg halfway I fallen aslp le..haha…as usual de..thnk he got used 2 it le..anyway really THANK U SO MUCH 4 CALLIN even though u r busy…thanks..haha..i went back 2 slp after that..= x was late 4 meeting..then wen qian called me nn asked wat number I wan 4 my jersey..hmm,I was like still very lost..don noe wat number I wan too…then I told her I will call her back again..i said I wan 18 but is taken by her cuz zhan hui took her 17..haha..so no choice..i so lu..go take 81..actually,only then I juz realized that e number 18 hold lots of meaning 4 me..we got 2gether on e 18th too..haha..but anyway I got 81..e reflection is 18 as well..haha..went 2 sch 4 e sports activities event..didn’t ate anything at all cuz was late..e captain’s ball was pretty fun overall but pretty tiring as I have 2 run round e court..haha..after that went off with manda,jx nn naing..we accompanied him2 business library 2 return a dvd b4 setting off 2 mrt station..didn’t had enough slp..quite tired though..went work after that…b4 that msg Wilson told him meet at usual time..told him I didn’t had time 2 eat anything as well so he asked me 2 get them helped me save stuff dinner..i didn’t nn I don wan too..so met him at e bus stop..was pretty shocked when he passed me e bread..thanks boyy..very nice of euu..i didn’t treat euu bad too..haha…ya that dae was pretty busy too if I didn’t remembered wrongly..anyway saw e new gal,nurul 4 e 1st time..haha..it was damn lame..Wilson go tell her that I got an American daddy nn Chinese mummy..even me myself also cant stand it but 2 laugh..haha..i couldn’t even convince myself that..ya then Wilson become my cousin too..we r relatives nn sort of related by blood..- _ - “ do u think she actually buy our stories???I don noe..but she damn talkative..kept on talking non stop de..i can be talking 2 will halfway then she interrupted in..felt a bit…hmmm..think she juz trying 2 get attention from us…she quite poor thing too…will was pretty mean 2 her too..haha..evil him..then e 3 of us stayed2 do closing..haha..had lots of fun..we went kitchen 2 made lasgna sea food nn shared..b4 that we already ate cannelloni as well too..went home after that..had a long long dae..
17 June
I didn’t work 2dae..suppose 2 bring my daddy out 2 celebrate father’s dae..woke up damn late too..after that bathe,dress up.doll up..we went off 2 clarke quay Indonesia restaurant 2 have our dinner..it was really YUMMY!!!got sambal sotong,sambal stringray fish,sambal prawns,fried beancurd with egg,chicken satay..juz taste HEAVENLY~!!!ya then after that went amalfi 2 look 4 dar dar..haha,,chatted 4 a while..didn’t dare 2 chat long too cuz seems pretty busy..so funny..alan was known as my bf..cuz not 2 expose e truth..nurul said hi 2 alan 1st then kept on smiling 2 him..haha..dotz..daddy nn mummy went 2 watch soccer..so alan nn I went roamin abt..in e end,we sat by e riverside..i took off my shoes nn my leg dangling..yea..love this feelin..was sitting there admiring e nitez scenary of Clarke quay..i was thinking alan mzu be wonderin if only e person sittin beside him right now is not e sis..haha..ya true..i was thinking of that too..at e same time was msging dar dar nn Alvin..we didn’t sit 4 long cuz alan wanna go walk walk..*bishz*after that we went liang court 4 a while..since it was already like 9 plus le..almost every shops closed le..then we crossed a bridge…came 2 a field..saw ppl flying something..don noe wat’s that but it seems really beautiful..so colourful..we went 2 sit down there nn looked at it..heard from alan is from kite flyin club…I didn’t noe Clarke quay got such thing till 2dae..interesting..haha.then met up with daddy nn mummy nn we went 2 amalfi 2 say byee 2 dar dar..anyway waited 4 her 2 knocked off..meanwhile chatted with mahen,uncle dan etc..dar dar so cute..wished daddy a happy’s father dae…so sweet of her isn’t it??haha..ya reached home pretty late that nitez..12 plus already..then after bathe,as usual went online till 3 plus then slp..tml wokin morning…enter my lala land..
18 June
I was like so uwilling 2 wake up when my mummy woke me up this morning…dar dar cant worked in e morning with me as she got her stall thingy..sad..so only me nn tricia..anyway wasn’t that bad..alrite..2dae he came 2 work le..i was pretty cold 2wards him..mahen made 4 me a bismark pizza..shared with him..we ate 2gether..it was like pretty busy..i didn’t have time 2 eat too..ate halfway go helped out..in e end..i didn’t eat much..juz throw everything away..he wanna talked 2 me..but always cant talked 4 long cuz got work 2 do..haha..ya..will working 2dae as well cuz I get him 2 exchanged with nit..then 2 nitez e 3 of us working 2gether again..haha..fun..sweetie came early 2 pei me..then after that I went cold storage 2 get lime juice,orange juice nn whipped cream..lucky sweetie is with me..if not,how m I able 2 get all those stuffs myself???was damn busy nn some more short handed..dotz..suddenly got so many customers..but lucky after that can relax a while..so funny..2dae e 3 of us was like crazy..wanna asked kian come work too..then heard from him that his frd wanna come work cuz fallen in love with jacelyn..dotz..another superficial guy..ya 2dae I worked 4 14 hrs…break record..haha..anyway he went off early 2dae..then I thought he not feeling well..he was feeling dwn..bcuz of test nn of cuz her as well..he told me he wanna give her up..think he cant..haiz..anyway he went drinkin..was shocked when he told me that cuz he don drink de..suppose he muz be feelin sad or rather cares a lot abt her..he wanna drink his trouble away..to me I feel quite toopid..i simply feel that drinkin wont solve ur pro..ya I was pretty affected by him too..nv mind..poor sweetie..haiz..was once again her mood being affected by lionel..haiz..gals…gals..
19 June
wow…2dae I woke up damn late..abt 4 plus..haha..piggy me..haizz..another dae of slackin 4 me..die le..next wk example..y m I still so slack???haizz..i m feeling a bit troubled too…is it bcuz of him???thnk so..but anyway gonna be e last time I feelin vexed over him..wont allow myself again..no more..anyway ya chatted with my tu di online too..he damn lame nn really ginnna..haha..but quite fun too..can c that he can really takes cares of her..chat with dar dar nn him too..he asked me whether wanna go out tml..i told him I goin sch study..then heard from him that he goin off soon..hmm..ya..also good..wont c him..haha..i sound soo bad..but I ain’t..anyway he still very sad..some more his that frd comin 2 work tml le nn she’s working too..he would be even more sad if he c them chatting happily 2gether..i cant do much 2 help too..actually I can juz heck care nn don care anything but I juz cant do it..haizz..if he don leave,I will too..perhaps juz any dae..juz cant bear with my dar dar nn sweetie..him too??I don noe..maybe..but not anymore..don wish 2 continue this anymore..all e memories that we had,had become history..he’s not e guy that will msg me every nitez,fetch me fr sch etc anymore..no longer..perhaps bcuz of all these memories,I m still having a little linger 4 him..he now getting upset over some1 else..nn I m e 1 that he turns too..pouring all his troubles 2 me..some more I even encourage him 2 go after her,confess 2 her..so nice nn sweet of me..actually at e moment that I told him that,I was feeling upset..i even helped him thought of how to say..can imagine how I felt at that moment..haha…lucky it was only a short crush???suppose his looks,his childishness captivate me..haha..after that nitez..i told myself is time 2 give up..time 2 let goo.. juz wanna concentrate on my studies now..no more other stuffs on my mind..studies in my top priority..wanna get into uni as my parents wish..hope 2 get him out of my mind soon..think he don noe abt all this…neither do I wan him 2 noe too..so u better stop messin with me..though I m e 1 who rejected u 1st..but u got ur revenge now..my mood is affected bcuz of euu..finally,i sort understand how it feels 2 like some1 now..sorry apple 4 saying words that hurt euu..i don feel good too..i finally understand how u feel le..dar dar nn sweetie don worry abt me..i m fine…ya think dar dar had been feelin sweet all these while..chilling out with him etc..haha..would really be happy if dar dar gets 2gether with him..he seems 2 be a pretty nice guy..wanna my dar dar nn sweetie to be happy always..smilez…entering my dreamland le..
4:10 AM
soooo lazy to blog 4 e past few dae..haha..was feeling pretty down on sun but now i m fine le..afternoon had a small arguement with apple..is it arguement???think soo..haha..he said me was i really busy on sat??i told him ya i m..then i replied him"u think i lied 2 him is it??"u noe wat did he said that makes me fume nn mad??he replied"i don noe..did u??"my god..he obviously dn trust me..he's juz angry that i didn't call him nn he waited 4 my call whole nitez..i reached home at abt 2 plus..by then he would be aslp le..but anyway we r fine now..haha..initially he asked me still frds??i told him nope..haha..he said i sooo evil..made him lost all his mood 2 study his music...cant blame me too..who asked him sooo bad 1st..= p..i told wilson that i si lian le..haha..his replied was "si lian ur head"..then he gave me so damn lame suggestions..always glad 2 have him around..with him,there's always laughter..was like so called "on phone with felix"..was discussing abt e EC dinner thingy nn some stuff..both of us damn lame..we were on phone but we ddn't really talk..chatted on msn with shang jing too..e 3 of us were crapping..haha..felix was like crazy..adding so so so many ppl into e conversation..he was shocked 2 c it's like 3am le..he quickly went bathe..think he too happy typing nn chatting le..quite funny..u c so many responses nn how lame tehy can get..here i m smiling happily again..that should be e real me..btw,ya chatted with alvin on msn on sun straight after i had dinner with my parents..chat till 9 plus then he got 2 go back 2 camp le..1st time chat with him on msn..not bad..haha..then after that we sms each other..he was suggesting maybe we should juz meet up 1 dae..i told him we shall c..feeling weird nn shy too > _ <
1:47 AM
after that suppose 2 meet dar nn go her house do my a n p quizz..in e end we went tiong bahru to find her top nn skirt then not enough time le as muz go work later..so after juz went her house 4 a while then we went work le..worked at food corner again..he made a pizza using fresh prawns nn dough...he cooked some sotongs as well..wow..really taste HEAVENLY!!! e squid was damn fresh nn so soft nn chewy...YUMMY!!!e pizza was great too..left 3 more pieces nn he asked me 2 finsh it up..too much 4 me..so i left it at e bottom there..who noe???don noe wat happened nn e plate dropped off..NO MORE PIZZA!!!wasted..haha..it was damn busy 2dae...order kept comin non stop.c uncle dan nn him damn busy...work non stop..he scaleded his hand while trying to catch e pizza from dropping off..toopid him..nv think of his hand..i thought juz a minor burn..but saw him kept rinising his hand with water..juz realised his whole palm were as red as monkey ass..my god..i went to ask tricia whether she had any burn cream nn she passed me apiko..don noe how to spell it..haha..then i helped him apply..he seems to be in really great pain..his hand kept trembled..think he almost cried too..poor boy..but after that he's feeling better..hope he will recover soon...
my dar dar was damn cute...she seems so happy nn she said she got something to tell me..haha...noe wat's that???she dreamt of holding hand with that guy...so funny...she damn cute...i also hope that she will get 2gether with him...i simply feel he's really a nice guy..haha..
3:33 AM
haiz..2dae suppose 2 go out with my dar nn sweetie..we said it since last wk n we will go catch a midnight movie nn have our gals'chat..i thought i can go cuz my mummy didn't say anything or object to it..who noe my daddy don allow..i was damn angry nn upset over it..haiz..i pulled a long face after that..didn't ate anything 4 e whole dae except 4 some biscuits..my mummy kept asking me 2 get something to eat b4 i go work..i told her i m full..actually i m..think i m too upset to eat le..haha..my mummy can tell i very unhappy that i cant go out..i noe very bad but juz cant help it but 2 pull a long face..
after that my mood turns 4 e better after talking to qing siang nn saw my dar at work too.. i m back to normal again..haha..e always smiling nn smiling me!!!2dae was pretty busy..chandra asked me to do bar then uncle dan asked me go food corner nn make e dolly paper..qing siang helped me with that too..we were chatting there..he said some funny stuffs nn made me laugh..of cuz my mood turns for e better..he's really a not bad guy..not a bad catch!!haha..in e end,i worked at food corner instead..lots of order..i even helped 2 make lasagna etc..haha..think i can ve part time kitchen stuff le..he kept disturbing me as well or rather bully me..haha..anyway had a fun time juz now..c how my dar dar teased qing siang abt e "hard gay" thingy..feeling sort of guilty cuz i told her abt qing siang nn wil doin e hard gay act yest then 2dae she disturbed him with that..haha...she damn cute!!
oh ya...such a coincidence...i juz walked over 2 e bar then i saw apple outside amalfi..i was shocked 2 c him...i saw yeow chong as well..haha..but after that i went back to food corner 2 continue with e dolly paper..apple msged 2 ask whether can i meet him outside 4 a short chat..i tld himi i m busy with my stuff so in e end i didn't went out..decide 2 call him instead..while we were talking,he kept came over nn disturbed..he 4ever like that de..whenever i chat on phone,he will come disturb.it seems that he noe when i m talking to guys..then in e end i got no choice but 2 put down e call..anyway,apple still came over 2 find me..juz managed to say bye 2 him as it was damn busy..really had beenquite a long time since we last seem each other..i didn't kept my promise 2 him..sorry..though promise u that will at least meet up with u once a wk or once a forthnight but didn't manage 2 fullfill it..sorry apple..really had been damn busy..
oh no,i haven study 4 my a n p..worse is i got no bio backgrd nn i don even noe wat is talking abt right from e start of e sem..this is e worse time i m goin thru right now..slp in lecture etc..had nv do this b4 in my entire sch life..1st time doin all this.not only once but pratically almost everytime now...really worried 4 my mst..wat shld i do???can any1 help me?? lucly got frds who's willing 2 help me..i hate yr 2!!!!
gonna end here...it's already mornin...i m early..haha..time to slp..
will ask myself to let go from now on....... life without euu....
3:29 AM
now is e learning week..suppose 2 wake up early to do my hw 2dae..in e end slept till 11 plus when alan woke me up cuz my frd called.. only then i willing 2 wake up..was very blurr when i answered e call..haha..i wonder whether he knows i m still in my dream land..he called to ask abt e tickets thingy nn when we wanna go..
was busy doin e attendance list for e freshies..it was pretty tough..i took quite some time doin it..don noe y still short of 1 name..give up le..haha.. then after that went out with my mummy to shop nn save 2 shop 4 some groceries.. i ate a carrot cake,prawn nn a herbal egg...i so tan chi..haha..i muz really do my hw later if not really got no time 4 it le!!!tml mornin muz go sch 4 basic care talk then after taht to work..i got 2 hand up e assignment by fri..so really got 2 me discipline nn do my work..haha..
lots of stuffs on my mind right now...studies,cca etc..exams are comin..m really worried abt it as i really don noe my work well..haizz.gonna work hard during this holidays le..cant afford to score badly..sometimes,i really wonder wat r LOVE??is it true that RELATIONSHIP cant always last long??some friends around me prove this wrong nn some prove it to be true..i m rather confused too..haha..but i feel nothing in this world lasts 4ever..
i saw him last week...haiz...once,i told myself before..if i ever c him again,i will sayy hi to him..but i failed 2 do soo again..
5:43 PM
ur bloq ish finali done .. credits qoes to mii !! roars .. muz bloq more often alritex .. hees .. jiayou !!
3:35 PM
